I will not propose projects here. I strongly realized I didn’t believe in M1lk enough to follow through with it. I do believe in serious games in social communication but I am not going to to create something AND seek to build a a community at the same time. I won’t last.
After M1lk I began to work on a business plan that is
also unfinished, I decided I was still a bit naive about the financial analysis portion. I started a kitchen wiki for sharing kitchen lore but found flaws in the system. I couldn’t see how to allow multiple subjective voices to participate in a wiki and still be identified without turning into a development project (which perhaps I will take on later). For instance I might want to add that combining sri racha and fresh chopped tomatoes is a good quick salsa but others may disagree. I abandoned that project too. I started looking at how to leverage my VBA programming experience and started to look at MS certification I could earn along the way if I finally got around to trying to understand .NET and learn about VSTA, which sounds like VBA meets .NET.
What kind of blog would that be if I just kept expressing my excitement about a project I felt might the one I could through to completion? At least watching machines was a serious effort. I spent a lot of time and some money trying to make progress in a new field (electronics) before I became too baffled to continue (those acursed op-amps!).
Well I did see a project through. I created a 52 page print zine about the post-apocalyptic genre called Aftermath. It continues the romanticism dialog I touched upon here in this blog two years ago.
So the new rule is the first news about a project comes at least after I have already begun work on it. You know scratch that. Its totally fine that I do all of my inner workings here.
The new rule is that there is no hard and fast rule.

I thought so. The WordPress clock is off. I posted this at 12:25pm PST not 7:25 pm. Anyway the point of this post is that whether or not my last post was at 4:43am, since then I had clearly accepted defeat.
grade in my major subject. Since then I had my hours cut in half, I had been healing a achilles heel condition that has kept me from working out, my laptop died for good, I lost my mind to stress when my teenaged cousin was being preparing for a finger amputation from a fireworks attack, and then we received a large 6 month utility bill when I got home. Then more family started dying, with two so far from my father’s side. I am expecting two more on my mother’s side before long. It has been one crisis after another, and then there was my guilt-based lack of resilience (the punishment submission attitude), which through these ordeals I have since corrected.
I have an F grade in Data Structures, which might color my enthusiasm. I had an A during my midterm, so one may wonder how this F came to be; I attribute it to internet rage. This was my only online course.







